as someone who struggles with suicidal ideation, there have been times where i've been convinced that suicide is the only option. I'll plan everything around it and then within like an hour I'll change my mind having a fragment of clarity, only to circle back into the same cycle of thinking about it again. These lyrics are depictions of some of the intrusive thoughts I have had during the in and outs of that cycle.
lyrics
I will clean my room for the last time
I will complete my Suicide.
I will clean my room for the last time.
I will complete my Suicide.
I will leave nothing behind.
I’m not gonna leave nothing behind.
I will clean my room for the last time
I will complete my Suicide.
I will clean my room for the last time.
I will complete my Suicide.
I will leave nothing behind.
I’m not gonna leave nothing behind.
I rose, in fact i’m good, i didnt miss out on meeting myself.
I needed myself.
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